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Retrospective Collective

by John Velsor

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1.
I wish that I could be more like what you'd wanna see but these things ain't inside of me and I must be true/ I can't tell what you want from me, i'm trying to keep my record clean and be more who I wanna be but I don't know if I could/ or how I would I don't think that you meant it/ when you turned to me and said/ that you could never be true to me/ oh how I weeped you've got these things infront of you, and all the different paths to choose but will you win or will you lose? I do not know/ I guess that it all comes down to if you smile or if you frown, and if you let them all bring you down then I guess that you'll go right to the bottom floor I don't think that you meant it/ when you turned to me and said/ that you could never be true to me/ oh how I weeped But we've got all this to say/ and we've got this world to save/ and as the glacier steams the ocean screams/ someone help me Because I've got myself into a bind, I Really don't think we'll win this time/ should I take this as I sign or should I pretend I'm blind?/ The way it goes and the way it ends all depends on how it began/ we're all still doing the things we can to see it through/ all staying on the move I don't think that you meant it/ when you turned to me and said/ that you could never be true to me/ oh how I weeped
2.
The last chance is calling/ your trembling hands are stalling/ the ship's deck has turned to ash/ the leading lady takes a bowing stance Whistling through the trees/ trace the autumn leaves/ and the path they take as they fall We looked up, saw the mountain/ our heart and soul grew tall/ we washed our minds in the fountain/ we knew it won't be long Whistling through the trees/ trace the autumn leaves/ and the path they take as they fall and the path they take as they fall and the path they take as they fall
3.
You never treated me very kindly/ I never followed your steps so blindly I don't/ don't believe it's true I'll say it again/ though I lost a friend I feel I gained more in the end It's such a pity that you don't feel sorry/ you took to talking when you were behind me I don't/ don't believe it's true I'll say it again/ though I lost a friend I feel I gained more in the end We can tear it all down, we can build something new/ we can see what we find and if it's nothing true then I don't/ I don't believe you I'll say it again/ though I lost a friend I feel I gained more in the end I'll say it again/ though I lost a friend I feel I gained more in the end I'll say it again/ though I lost a friend I feel I gained more in the end
4.
Tried to show you what exactly was going on in my head, and maybe tell you what I might've said/ but I won't be ok if I stay this way, I just can't take another day without finding out Won't you tell me what I've done, what's the cause or the reason, that you can't feel the way I feel/ or understand, or ever show anything that resembles love at all Why does it have to take so long/ don't they know I'll be gone before too long/ Can't they see how far we've come/ nothing ends, it changes over and over, and over again Well I don't need you or anybody, don't try and stop me I'm gone, you know as well as I do that I don't belong/ I can't explain I don't feel the same as anyone who's gone or came through my life Why does it have to take so long/ don't they know I'll be gone before too long/ Can't they see how far we've come/ nothing ends, it changes over and over, and over again Why does it have to take so long/ don't they know I'll be gone before too long/ Can't they see how far we've come/ nothing ends, it changes over and over, and over again
5.
Let me write my name on your wall/ don't look so happy when you see me fall/ I'll come running from down the hall/ I'll answer the phone when you give me a call I'm still smiling despite the way it's gone/ I've been here so long/ just singing my songs/ Feeling sorry about what I've become/ you know I can't help all the things that have already been done They say I shouldn't see you anymore/ that you'd tie me up and that you'd do me wrong/ so if those knots ever become undone/ I can say that I knew all along So don't be in a hurry to get back to the way we was/ you might get there just to find out I'm not there at all/ ain't it kinda funny how we can't help fall in love/ turn our backs on eachother, and do eachother wrong If you look for me and I'm not there/ I'll be tangled up in her hair/ she can kill me with her stare/ she makes me feel like I just don't care I hope it will be sunny when we see the dawn/ we'll try to find all the things that we thought were lost/ and if your story's pages have been burned/ we'll try to forget all the things that we thought were learned but I'm still smiling despite the way it's gone/ I've been here so long/ just singing my songs/ Feeling sorry about what I've become/ you know I can't help all the things that have already been done So don't be surprised when you find I've gone
6.
If I start to Stutter it's just because I don't know what to say/ You've been asking me questions and I can't give you the answer right away I've been thinking about what tomorrow's got in store for me/ Trying to reason it out, I guess we'll just have to wait and see I laid down to take my rest last night, took about 3 hours to fall asleep/ You've got me rollin' tumblin' and turnin' around there was just too much room without you next to me I've been thinking about what tomorrow's got in store for me/ Trying to reason it out, I guess we'll just have to wait and see/ Oh no I learned not to fight it, you just end up getting more confused that way/ And you never got me knowin' if I'm comin' or goin' if I'm just a little bit too early or a little too late I've been thinking about what tomorrow's got in store for me/ Trying to reason it out, I guess we'll just have to wait and... see
7.
Out there, always on the run/ looking for salvation in everyone/ I've seen your face before/ I feel it coming on again it's always in my thoughts/ I slowly fade away If you tread in my head again/ I'll see to it that you leave instead/ I was thinking about what you said/ I won't forget the pain that I felt today Saw you sitting on a bench minding your own business/ it became my business too/ when your lips move not a word comes out/ I couldn't hear a sound/ can't stand another round It comes down heavy and it comes down hard/ take a look at where you'll be when I am gone/ you made me feel the pain and now you feel the shame/ you made me feel the pain/ you made me feel the pain/ you made me feel the pain i'll never be the same Out there, always on the run/ looking for salvation in everyone/ you've seen my face before/ you feel it coming on again it's always in your thoughts/ you slowly fade away It comes down heavy and it comes down hard/ take a look at where you'll be when I am gone/ you made me feel the pain and now you feel the shame/ you made me feel the pain/ you made me feel the pain/ you made me feel the pain i'll never be the same
8.
Take your time and it will be alright although life has been mistreating you and it still won't get much easier hold on, hold on for a while Tried to feel the changes that you've seen no I can't say where we're going, or if I am in control of it so hold on, hold on for a while Oh Oh I just lose control, don't know where to go without you It's all real and there's no time to feel, so keep your head down, try to blend in to the crowd and just go on, go on for a while people change and what else can I say? No I'm not trying to ignore it, I'm just tired of feeling all of this so go on, just go on for a while Oh Oh I just lose control, don't know where to go, without you Oh Oh never let it show, never let them know about you
9.
If there's no answer to any of the questions/ then what are we even asking for?/ why dig up the roots of all these problems/ when the tree has already grown? And after all we've found/ we're the same as we always were/ try though we may/ we can't escape these changes/ pretty soon you'll have to face/ who you really are What is it that you're trying to find?/ have you gotten any further than before?/ limited by the distance of your site/ can you imagine there being any more? And after all we've found/ we're the same as we always were/ try though we may/ we can't avoid these changes/ pretty soon you'll have to face/ what you have become
10.
In this house of fire/ watch the walls tumble down/ think of it as a pyre/ ode to what we once thought out loud I've only ever seen the best in you, it's haunting me/ that nothing ever really meant anything Think of it as a sign/ just passing through the sphere/ your thoughts will change in time/ as the time draws near I've only ever seen the best in you, it's haunting me/ that nothing ever really meant anything It's strange how we can all just live in this world and be so far away/ do you ever really get to know anything? If this is all that there is/ then how can anyone see/ the lives that we will live/ how these things will come to be I've only ever seen the best in you, it's haunting me/ that nothing ever really meant anything It's so strange how we can all just live in this world and be so far away/ do you ever really get to know anything?
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12.
You could've told me you ain't coming back tonight/ you could've clued me in the fire's getting to bright/ you shouldn't of called me friend if you don't know what it means/ you shouldn't have said love if it's not what you see Don't expect me to take the blame/ don't expect me to feel the shame Thought someone had my back but then I hit the ground/ promised me a ton and all I got was a pound/ don't think I forgot about those sad yesterdays/ you've got to dramatize the truth and forget what I say I ain't worried about tomorrow til I get though today/ and don't expect me to feel the shame Crawling up a ladder without any steps/ gotta get away from the work pain and stress/ maybe I'll close my eyes/ and dream away Don't expect me to take the blame/ don't expect me to feel the shame I ain't worried about tomorrow til I get though today/ and don't expect me to feel the shame Crawling up a ladder without any steps/ gotta get away from the work pain and stress/ maybe I'll close my eyes/ and dream away
13.
I'm rockin my homemadetiedyeshirt/ treat me like that now you're bound to get hurt/ baby baby baby tell me say what's the word/ the way that you're acting is completely absurd Won't you say it again now/ just a little louder now/ say it again now/ just a little louder now Well I feel like powder and I'm ready to blow/ give me something solid just to show me you know/ I've been in the desert for 25 days!/ the coyote howl and the snake wants my brain Won't you say it again now/ just a little louder now/ say it again now/ just a little louder now Bring it on home Put a drop of lemon in your gasoline/ the preacher man teaching faith by the stream/ I'll tame that sea with my balladry/ look right down just to see how far I can see Won't you say it again now/ just a little louder now/ say it again now/ just a little louder now Say it again/ say it again/ say it again/ say it again
14.
take it easy/ take it easy/ ease your mind take it easy/ take it easy/ ease your mind Well you don't know how hard I tried/ about the pain or the sacrifice/ to reach a place that I could not find/ but I know one day, it's gonna be alright take it easy/ take it easy/ ease your mind take it easy/ take it easy/ ease your mind I'd trade my life for a minute or two/ if I found myself right next to you/ It's so easy come, so easy go/ you gotta plant that seed, you gotta let it grow take it easy/ take it easy/ ease your mind take it easy/ take it easy/ ease your mind take it easy/ take it easy/ ease your mind take it easy/ take it easy/ ease your mind I take that whole world with a grain of sand/ I'm tryin to do the best that I can/ If it skips the mind it won't meet the eye/ I'm gonna take it easy, I'm gonna be alright take it easy/ take it easy/ ease your mind take it easy/ take it easy/ ease your mind
15.
If you see something that looks like a bong And it's smoking up out of the ground And your joint is spinning from a loud guitar And you can't escape the smoke Don't smoke too much, it'll happen to you We were children once, playing with bongs And the thing that you're hearing is only the sound of the low spark of high heeled bongs... heeled bongs

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Recorded by various bands in various locations, 2007-2019

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released June 12, 2019

Featuring music by John Velsor as recorded by:
Medicine Fish
Astronauto
The Red Lights
The Relative Funktion
3BC
The Hydrants
John Velsor & Julian Maultsby

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John Velsor Valley Stream, New York

John Velsor is an NY songwriter/musician who's sound most predominantly mixes elements of folk, 60's/early 70's rock, and indie pop. Utilizing many other subtle hints of different genres in his music, it creates something that is both unique and familiar. Member of Medicine Fish, Astronauto, 3BC, The Clairewolves, The Red Lights, Jamais Vu, Brosuf Stalin, The Relative Funktion, The Hydrants & more ... more

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